Hello, I thought I’d write a bit of an intro to sort of update you all on the blog and it’s author (me). If you’d rather skip it and get to the good stuff I don’t blame you at all–go right ahead 🙂
Oh boy, here we go… I’m actually updating this blog right now. It’s happening. I’ve found myself with some free time on my hands, so I figured why not use it to revisit this god forsaken place that I once threw my whole self into?
This was a sacred space for me. A place for me to share my deepest struggles and favorite insights as I learned my way through my own journey of self care and self betterment. Is betterment a word? I think so? Anyway…
I’ve come to a feeling of peace about this blog recently.
I spent a lot of time feeling like a failure, telling myself this blog was yet another example of how I “give up on everything”. I put so much of my energy and care into this thing, and into helping my readers navigate their own journeys, and then once I started feeling like I’d found mental stability in my life, I abandoned it and essentially abandoned my readers. Not that I was really that big of a force in anyone’s life, but I do feel like my articles were helping people in some way. And I’ve struggled with guilt and a feeling of failure ever since I moved on from my writing.
But recently I’ve been reflecting on it, and I’m starting to realize that there’s more to my purpose than just writing helpful articles. Yes, that’s a good way to share what I’m learning and to be a light in a dark world. In fact it’s a great way. But like I’ve said many times in past articles: if my heart isn’t in it, it’s meaningless. It’s hollow. It’s like handing an empty gift box to someone for their birthday.
I love to write, but I genuinely haven’t felt inspired to use that mode of expression in a long time. And that is partly because I haven’t had a lot of darker emotional experiences to draw inspiration from, but it’s also just the fact that sometimes we are less interested in a hobby, even our favorite hobby, than we once were. And that’s perfectly okay. I don’t think our love for the hobby goes away. It just comes in waves. I’ve discovered that I’m the same way with painting and drawing. I LOVE to do both those things, but I tend to go through phases where I do them all the time and then phases where I don’t do them at all.
So that’s sort of where I’m at with writing. At the moment I’m still not super interested in it like I was before, but I know the love for it will return. And I’m grateful to have this blog waiting here for me when it does.
Speaking of this blog… In case you haven’t noticed, there are an ungodly amount of intrusive ads. Like basically everywhere on the blog. This is some sort of spam that I have tried over and over to get rid of, but have not yet succeeded. So I’m really sorry, I know it’s probably super annoying. I’m hoping to pinpoint where on earth it’s coming from at some point and get rid of it.
But anyways, let’s get to the actual article. I had a bit of inspiration to write today so I’m going with it 🙂 Hope you get something out of it!
We’ve all heard this word spoken countless times in children’s stories. A magical word that’s often said while waving a wand around in the air. I always assumed this was just a silly made up word, and you probably assumed the same. But apparently there might be a little more to it than that.
I was listening to a podcast episode last night from The Duncan Trussell Family Hour podcast (which you should totally check out. Duncan is hilarious and a deeply spiritual person who is very interesting to listen to). Duncan had his friend on the podcast who he affectionately and rather jokingly refers to as his Rabbi, a guy named Dr. Benjy Epstein.
Dr. Epstein touched on a ton of fascinating stuff, and one of the things that really blew my mind was what is said to be the actual meaning of the word “Abracadabra”.
Now, there is some confusion about whether or not this is entirely accurate, but a lot of people seem to agree that the true origin of the word Abracadabra is the Aramaic phrase, “Avra Kehdabra”, meaning “I will create as I speak”.
That really struck me. What a powerful phrase. I will create as I speak. It got me thinking about how powerful our words are. Dr. Epstein said that our words are keys. I think he meant that our words are like keys that can unlock potential modes of existence. For example, if you use the words “I am so forgetful”, you are unlocking the mode of existence where you are forgetful. You will start forgetting things more often. The words will sort of act as a self fulfilling prophecy.
You can think of the words you say as your magic wand. Abracadabra – You create as you speak! You wave your magic wand and viola you have just created something. You’ve said your magic words and you have now created a potential mode of existence.
This all maybe sounds a bit ridiculous, but there’s actually some science to back this concept up. Here is an excerpt from an article titled “The Neuroscience Behind Our Words”
“Scientific studies actually show that positive and negative words not only affect us on a deep psychological level, but they have a significant impact on the outcome of our lives.”
In that article they mention a neuroscience experiment called “Do Words Hurt?” where subject’s brain responses to auditory and imagined negative words were monitored. During the experiment, it was discovered that painful/negative words increase something called Implicit Processing (IMP) within the subgenual anterior cingulate cortex (sACC).
Basically, that means the study proved that stress and anxiety inducing hormones were released in the subjects in response to negative/painful words.
The article also mentions a study where children were found to have increased levels of anxiety in association with higher rates of negative self-talk.
So if negative words affect us negatively, how do positive words affect us?
The article goes on to talk about a book called “Words Can Change Your Brain” written by Dr. Andrew Newberg, a neuroscientist at Thomas Jefferson University, and Mark Robert Waldman, a communications expert. Here’s another quick excerpt:
“Furthermore, according to these two experts in their field, exercising positive thoughts can quite literally change one’s reality. ‘By holding a positive and optimistic [word] in your mind, you stimulate frontal lobe activity. This area includes specific language centers that connect directly to the motor cortex responsible for moving you into action. And as our research has shown, the longer you concentrate on positive words, the more you begin to affect other areas of the brain.’ ~Newburg, Waldman Over time, given sustained positive thought, functions in the parietal lobe start to change. Consequently, this changes our perception of the self and those around us. Essentially, holding a positive view of ourselves helps train our brain to see the good in others. Thus, by exercising consistent positive thoughts and speech, we not only change our self-perception, but how we perceive the world around us. Ultimately, this grants us the ability the shape our reality and change the world for the better.”
So this beautiful, ancient, magical word “Abracadabra”, “I will create as I speak” — this word holds a deeply important truth. We are quite literally creating our reality as we speak.
This brings to mind one of my favorite quotes from Lao Tzu: “Watch your thoughts, they become your words; watch your words, they become your actions; watch your actions, they become your habits; watch your habits, they become your character; watch your character, it becomes your destiny.”
I don’t know about you, but this was a much needed lesson for me. I’m actually thinking about writing the word “Abracadabra” on a sticky note and putting it up on my bathroom mirror. Just as a reminder that the words I speak hold the power to direct my life. It’s up to me to wield that power in a positive way.
Anyways, I hope this was as interesting to you as it was to me, and I hope you got something out of it 🙂 Check out Duncan Trussell’s podcast if you’re interested in spirituality and have a twisted sense of humor, and I’d especially recommend his Netflix show The Midnight Gospel if you like the idea of a show similar to Rick and Morty or Adventure Time but with a beautifully deep spiritual underpinning. Fair warning: the last episode WILL make you cry like a baby. It’s heart wrenchingly beautiful, but I won’t spoil it for you. Go watch it for yourself!
Thanks for tuning into my brief moment of inspiration. I appreciate and love you all so much, and I’m hoping to have more of these inspired moments in the future. We’ll see how it goes.
Until Next Time,
Keep Calm and Grow On